I care for him .
He cares for me .
So today was fucking intense ! Justin , had a girlfriend the whole time . She was my friend . A n t i o n e t t e : ( I didn't see that coming . But hey , he dumped her just for me . We stayed on the phone all day and all night tonight . We told each other things we've never told anyone else . I really care for him . He really cares for me too . And that's something we both don't usually do .
Fuck Brandon ! I haven't officially broken up with him . But I will soon . In fact fuck everyone . No one supports me and Justin . Everyone thinks I'm being stupid and naive . Maybe I am , but damn it when is it going to be my turn ? ! My turn to take the leap of faith into love ? When is it going to be my turn ? Life is too fucking short . I can't live for tomorrow . Tomorrows much too long <---- Smashing Pumpkins lyric ; <3 No no no , it's my turn now . And if things fail with Justin then that's okay. Carrie , Samantha , Miranda , and Scarlett went threw tons of guys before they finally found the right one . I have to start with someone somewhere . And I want my first love to be Justin .
Ugh , I'm just so pissed off at Alana ! She doesn't even have my back with this or support me . I support her with everything . When everyone was spreading around her love life and saying that she had chlamydia I was the only person who had her back . Even though it was basically only rational and very obvious that she did have it , I stuck with her till the end . Because that's what friends do . We're all each other have , so where is she now ?
Anyway , today was fucking intense ! Justin , had a girlfriend the whole time . She was my friend . A n t i o n e t t e . but all the drama started with this post . . .
Antionette saw it and had her friend Raven set me up on a three way conference call immediately . It was so high school of them to do that . But I guess this whole post here is kind of " so high school " But that feeling is somewhat comforting ( : Because it means I'm still so very young , so much growing up to do ; <3
But that day we had together , was the best day a human has ever had . At the best yet this year ( :
But that day we had together , was the best day a human has ever had . At the best yet this year ( :
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