Pretty Little Liars

Hey I'm Malèkett . 

I care for him . 

He cares for me . 

So today was fucking intense ! Justin , had a girlfriend the whole time . She was my friend . A n t i o n e t t e : ( I didn't see that coming . But hey , he dumped her just for me . We stayed on the phone all day and all night tonight . We told each other things we've never told anyone else . I really care for him . He really cares for me too . And that's something we both don't usually do . 

Fuck Brandon ! I haven't officially broken up with him . But I will soon . In fact fuck everyone . No one supports me and Justin . Everyone thinks I'm being stupid and naive . Maybe I am , but damn it when is it going to be my turn ? ! My turn to take the leap of faith into love ? When is it going to be my turn ? Life is too fucking short . I can't live for tomorrow . Tomorrows much too long <---- Smashing Pumpkins lyric ; <3 No no no , it's my turn now . And if things fail with Justin then that's okay. Carrie , Samantha , Miranda , and Scarlett went threw tons of guys before they finally found the right one . I have to start with someone somewhere . And I want my first love to be Justin . 

Ugh , I'm just so pissed off at Alana ! She doesn't even have my back with this or support me . I support her with everything . When everyone was spreading around her love life and saying that she had chlamydia I was the only person who had her back . Even though it was basically only rational and very obvious that she did have it , I stuck with her till the end . Because that's what friends do . We're all each other have , so where is she now ? 

Anyway , today was fucking intense ! Justin , had a girlfriend the whole time . She was my friend . A n t i o n e t t e . but all the drama started with this post . . .

Antionette saw it and had her friend Raven set me up on a three way conference call immediately . It was so high school of them to do that . But I guess this whole post here is kind of " so high school " But that feeling is somewhat comforting ( : Because it means I'm still so very young , so much growing up to do ; <3
But that day we had together , was the best day a human has ever had . At the best yet this year ( : 

Still Alive . . . Damn .

Hello , I'm Malèkett . 

My favorite color is blue .
Tonight I was the sexiest girl in the world .
I hate reggae music . 
I love bumble bees .








As I'm getting older , the world is becoming less pure . I realize things in people that they wouldn't have allowed me to even see or hear when I was younger . I went to a bar with my parents tonight , and my step dad pulled out a bag of weed and asked the waiter if he'd like to join him for a smoke after his shift . Then my step dad proceeded to tell everyone at the table who all smokes weed in my family . It was funny as hell , but an eye opener . You learn so many secrets and truths when people get drunk . All my friends smoke weed except me . I hate the smell , I hate the name of it . It's just not for me . But I wonder if this was an " It's okay " sign from my parents that I can . Is weed nothing more than smoking a really good cigarette ? But I don't even like cigs :/

Anyway , on the way to the bar club with my parents and my sis I text my best friend Alana . We told each other that we loved one another . I want her to know that when I tell her I love her , I actually mean it . I'm not just saying it like those asshole guys she sleeps with . Three weeks ago I spent the night at Alana's house . She was dating this guy name Brandin , and I was happy with my boyfriend Brandon too . When her mom went to sleep Brandon and Brandin climbed in threw her bedroom window and we all ate lasagna and played this awesome game called ninja . 


When Alana and Brandin wanted to fuck , Brandon and I went for a walk in his neighborhood . It was 3am but we were so wide awake . I like the way the street looked then . The orange lamp post made these beautiful sparkles on the pavement . It was like walking on a diamond road . We walked and talked and talked and talked . Brandon is so charming and funny ( : Very humble and a true gentlemen . And the plus of it all is that he makes the best Donald Duck voice ever . He demonstrated it to me as we walked . It reminded me of elementary school when our gym teacher use to make the Donald Duck voice as we entered in and out of the school gates . One thing about growing up is that the child inside you always comes back for a visit when it hears a familiar voice , sound , smell , etc . 


But anyway , Brandon can do a decent Donald Duck voice ( : While we were walking we passed this beautiful rose bush . The roses were a nice pink color and smelt so good . I had spotted a pacific rose from miles away . And when we approached the tree , Brandon got that exact rose I had fallen in love with and gave it to me . It's like he read my mind . That was the same night I got my first kiss . Brandon tasted like cigarettes . Which surprised me because I didn't know he smoked . When I climbed back into Alana's window I was so numb and dazed . I felt like I had been swimming for a real long time . I told Alana and Brandin everything . I feel asleep on floor , and let Alana and Brandin have the bed . 


When they thought I was sleep they started to have sex again . God , I didn't know Alana was such a dirty talker . They said every dirty thing in the book , and then some . But then Alana said something important . 


She told Brandin  
" Tell me that you love me ."
And he said ,
 " I love you . I love this pussy . " 




After they were done with their wild crazy sex they held each other and chatted for a while . Then Alana said something beautiful . She said " Malèkett is really the only true friend I have . She's the only one I trust . " Her voice was so . . . A tear went down my eye . I smiled , and went to sleep .


Three days later Brandin broke up with Alana and went back to his other girlfriend . 

Hello & Goodbye

My name is Malèkett .

It means goddess of the moon . 

I'm 16 . 

I'm turning 17 next month on the 17th . 

I just got my first boyfriend  .

He loves me .

I'm cheating on him with the guy of my dreams .

I love him . 

And they say the world is ending tomorrow at 6pm . 

     Well , a few more hours to live so why not blog ? Heres my chance to spill out all those dirty little secrets I've kept bottled inside for 16 chaotic years . I honestly don't know what to put here , so bare with me . My life hasn't even started to become such a big thrill until four weeks ago . Wow , I can't even believe that all this has happened in four weeks time . A day has been feeling like a thousand years lately . Anyway , four weeks ago I got lucky . My friend Michael [ who drives me mental ] set me up with his friend Brandon . It was a blind date kinda thing . But maybe I'm going to fast so let's take some steps back .

        Hi , I'm Malèkett . I'm a 16 year old virgin who's never had a boyfriend . Sounds so teenage drama movie , I know . But that's my life . Being a boyfriendless 16 year old virgin is a one in a million thing in these days and times though . I'm the only virgin I know . Well , except my childhood best friend Tori ; <3 Were probably the only two left . So no wonder the world is ending tomorrow . 

                                                           

It's all been fucked , literally . 

     

But you know , I don't take it as a big deal . I examine my friends lives and let me tell you , sex brings drama . . . And chlamydia . Like Alana for example [ she's kinda like my only friend here in wacky ass tacky ass georgia ] has slept with our whole college , her entire high school , is currently starting on her Martial Arts class ,  and all that girl has is problems . People stick their noses up at her all day and say horrible things . Even the guys she sleeps with down her after they take her for a ride . People say bad things about me too because I hang out with her . But slut or not , she's all I got here . We're all each other have . 

         

               But God , sometimes I wish my virginity wasn't so damn obvious . I can't name how many times a random guy has walked up to me and asked if I were a virgin . It's like I have MARY written all over me in red blood [ virgin blood of course ] And to be a virgin is one thing , but to never have a boyfriend is a whole other situation . But at least I've taken care of that one because I'm not single anymore . Four weeks ago I got lucky . I got Brandon . We were set up by my annoying ass friend Michael . But then something even greater happened . Three weeks ago I got blessed . I got Justin . And we were set up by God himself .